Well its that time of year again when we have a solid 6 weeks with Zak and without the craziness of school runs, pack lunches and the daily grind, it gives us the time to refocus, regroup and plan for Zaks year ahead.
Hubby hates Zak on medication, believing that we are not dealing with any issues Zak may have, masking what is really going on and asked me to consider a summer without it.
Zaks medication has given me 4 hours of peace a day, taking him down a couple of notches which allows me to do all the above with some kind of normal. One hour after taking it, my home resembles some of what a house with 3 kids in it does……busy!!! Without it……carnage!!
The comedown from Ritalin is unpleasant, Zaks mood adjusting from “on it to normal”. We get anger, frustration and general misery and I think in my mind this is what we would encounter all day without it. Never-mind Zak becoming dependant on it, it has been my crutch.
Zak takes the minimum dose of his medication but every CAMHS appointment we are offered higher, being told due to his growth he “could probably do with more” and then a minimum dose of melatonin every night to counteract the Ritalin to allow him to sleep. All this is handed out to you with no parent warning on the bottle……GUILT!! Ritalin is a controlled drug, which basically means “a potential for abuse or addiction”. This is not just your baby, but your baby who is struggling to cope with the world around them and although I am not against medication in the short term, stratagies and coping skills need to be taught.
I totally believe it has played a positive part of our journey, 3 years ago when Zak was unable to sit and learn and take in knowledge that he would so desperately need in his younger years. However since then he has grown, we have worked so hard with his home based programme that maybe just maybe it was worth a shot.
So one week ago we boarded a plane with an extra suitcase full of aromatherapy oils, plug in vaporisers, crystals, supplements and rescue remedy, repeating my mantra…..we can always change our minds.
What are the changes I have seen? His appetite is back in full force and I have to keep a constant eye on it. Although he has more energy in the morning this is consistent throughout the day, taking no dips or sudden outbursts. His OCD is definatly better and the glazed look has gone. He has managed to still do his independent reading and lego building and his attention is no different and I believe his engagement is better and the guilt from me has vanished.
So will I continue on this holistic lifestyle for Zak or crumble??? At the moment I will say we will continue but I maybe more equipped to answer that at the end of the summer holidays!
You can continue watching Zaks summer on Instagram – tothemoonandzak
And one last thing……don’t forget your own medicine………WINE!!!!
Thanks for reading xxxxx